#does Izzy have religious trauma

[atryoshka]

Frenchie and Izzy getting together would be genius and tbh I can't unsee it now

Love that Izzy and Frenchie actually have a lot in common on a deeper level that wasn't really apparent to me until s2 when we see how they deal with trauma in equal but opposite ways. We have Frenchie with his little box that allows him to straight up ignore the dark shit he's been through like it doesn't exist, happily eat some blood cake, and thinking that his death being given a clear deadline is a comfort. Then we have Izzy trying to stone face his way through having his body parts severed, just business as usual bc that's the pirate life and it won't change even though he's visibly holding back tears, and then accusing the crew of being too cowardly to kill him, actively inviting death bc he doesn't get why any of it even matters so keeping him alive is pointless.

What's interesting is that given the right circumstances, they could easily trade places, with Izzy being more lighthearted and Frenchie falling apart at the seams.

We've already seen signs of this with Izzy being much more chilled out after the crew made him the new unicorn, finding something in this terrible life that make him see them, and himself, in a more positive light. Like yeah, life is still filled with unimaginable horror, but now has a custom gold painted unicorn leg to trudge through it with, which is absolutely absurd but now he can't help but smile. So he decided his life is so unserious right now and you know what? A shark took his leg, end of story, here's a little wooden shark I made today just for fun lol. Frenchie on the other hand is still pretty relaxed despite everything that's happened so far, but I have a feeling that he was probably very similar to izzy in the past before he joined the crew of The Revenge. His past is pretty mysterious even with the little tidbits we get like him being in the service for bit. It doesn't sound like he was doing it for too long so the other things in his life that he doesn't talk about remain unknown, probably even to himself. The box exists so he can pretend any trauma he experiences doesn't even exist, unlike a fiction which still somewhat acknowledges that there was something that happened to him in a way he could accept. The truth is, he actually never moved on bc all the parts of his life that he's ignoring are still lurking inside him waiting to break out at anytime. I think when something accidentally triggers a memory he suppressed, we'll see a different side to him. Less chill, more shrewd survivalist, like when he and the others reunited with the revenge crew after being stranded at sea. He bounced back pretty fast after they got past the pinnata and cake standoff but it was interesting to see how ready he was to be violent and how untrusting he was of everyone's intentions in that context. He'd usually be much more chill and willing to fast talk his way out of a situation, even when he knows someone has bad intentions. (There's also probably something with religious trauma he's hiding but that's a whole other can of worms I won't get into. All I'll say is that combined with his very strong beliefs of the supernatural and grudging flippant way he does the cross symbol on himself when others do it, when they boarded the cursed ship, he was that only one to not step in the satanic circle before anyone even questioned what the strange lines even were. Did he immediately recognize it and consciously avoid it or was it gut reaction? Idk, but he sure as hell didn't speak up about it and just wearily watched the other step into it and draw their own conclusions. ) But getting back on track Honestly, their dynamic would be really interesting to explore in the show bc they could understand and care about each other in ways that would probably surprise them if given the opportunity to spend more time together on screen. tl;dr: All this to say that I fell down the rabbit hole after realizing that they are basically this meme, which has a lot of potential for so many hilarious and accidentally heartbreaking moments

[allybeans]

I saw a fleeting glimpse of a post about fancasting the rat grinders but tumblr refreshed and the post disappeared but I made my fancast anyway

Kipperlily - Vic Michaelis. Would bring the same rancid vibes (complimentary) to the role as they have to the role of Vic Michaelis on VIP.

Ruben - Zach Reino. Does Zach even play D&D? Regardless, their ability to bring little bitch boy energy in PIBE make them perfect for this role. Plus imagine the terrible emo songs Zach would make up. (Alternatively: Brian David Gilbert, who would lean into the unhinged chasing after Wanda Childa energy more.)

Ivy - Izzy Roland. No one does socially intimidating better than Izzy.

Oisin - Jake Hurwitz. I may have a soft spot for Oisin. But I think Jake would bring a "just a good guy" energy that would add layers of complexity to the character. Bonus: it would be hilarious for Jake "how many times can I get away with playing a fighter" Hurwitz to play a wizard.

Mary Ann - Rekha Shankar. Socially intimidating but in a different way to Ivy/Izzy, Rekha's Mary Ann would be sooo frustrating and absolutely make Gorgug fly into a rage.

Buddy - Caldwell Tanner. In many ways Buddy is just Beverley Toegold V with more religious trauma and less touching of hands.

Lucy - Surena Marie. Sweet on the outside but with a solid, steely, unshakeable core, and impossible to dislike. Also I just want more Surena.

[thewhizzyhead]

hi its me so back when wattblr was at its peak (2020), watt basically gave me a drug that made me really fuckin creative and want to do a bajillion musicals. 4 years later, warriors has now force-fed me this drug again. Welcome back to me being annoying as fuck woo here's the Izzy Original Rambly Musical Masterlist - Part 1

+ Misfits - been developing this SINCE I WAS 13 and um its Basically A Show Within A Show idea inspired by my past experiences with my former church and their Christmas musicals. TO UNDERSTAND THIS HERE IS SOME BACKSTORY: so when I was 10-13 I used to be in Christmas musicals staged by my sunday school. These musicals were Pilipino translations (the songs stayed English) of Typical American Children Christmas Musicals found on youtube (check out A Rocking Royal Christmas on YouTube yes we did a Filipino translation of that and I played the narrator when I was 11 I'm not kidding). When I was 13, I wanted to make something more resonant to the teen crowd as um to be quite honest the stuff my fellow Sunday school people were going through were Fucking Heavy and i wanted to feature that + I always knew that the Very Kiddy Musicals we set up were mainly a show for the parents and all that. I wanted a message of faith that actually resonated with my age group - and i developed it far enough that at 14, i was commisioned by my sunday school teachers to work with the church's orchestra in actually having this developed! But 15 happened and I started questioning a lot of the stuff my Sunday school and church does in terms of like politics, mental health stuff, sexuality and identity and pressuring me and my fellow teens to become something we were not, and it really felt alienating, almost as if I was simply putting on a show to appease all those that look to me and want me to be the Best of Young Christian Soldiers

So the concept of Misfits is um okay just read this ramble i wrote 3 years ago that is MUCH MORE COHERENT AND COHESIVE than the descriptions ive been whipping up for three hours now:

There is more to this like I have been developing this for 7 years now and there IS A TRACKLIST and each character has a storyline and a certain dynamic with all of the characters - like all are connected one way or another - but the basic gist is:

1.) The Narrators Put On A Show For The Religious Audience, then Start Crumbling at The Questions Presented and Prompted by The Misfits, but also Upon The Realization Of How Much Pressure They Are Under in Supporting A Narrative They Are Conditioned To Unquestionably Trust + the reveal of the secrets they hide and deny about themselves in order to seem as the Perfect Model Christian (sexuality, mental health issues, parental/pastoral pressures, abuse, psychological trauma as a result of Putting On The Show - the Time Travel element is not just there for the purposes of the show, it has a very important plot element too that connects the leader of the Narrators with the defacto leader of the Misfits) + how do they deal with these secrets being slowly revealed when They Know They Are Being Watched

2.) The Misfits Try To Navigate The Strange Musical Scenario and Why The Narrators Seem Preachy, While Also Being Forced to Address Their Pasts and Presents on why They Are Deemed "Misfits" in the First Place (outside of Christian conservatism, there exists undeniable concern for the wellbeing of the "Misfits" aka juvenile delinquency and poverty, mental health issues, and um the defacto leader being a Former Member of the Narrators wHICH WILL BECOME THE RUNNING THREAD TO THE PLOT TWIST which is why they were chosen in the first place), so basically The Misfits Are Challenged to Acknowledged that They Are Indeed Troubled (especially with carefully planted plot points and script prompts used by the Narrators to have these in the open) - but the original Producers Approved plotline has them Turn Back To God, but how can they do so if the problems they face are rooted in the current religious institutions in place? That is the question presented by the Misfits to the Narrators - which is what causes their show to fall apart

3.) Through Questioning The Mission They Were Given and the Environments That Mandate Them To Do So Despite Their Own Struggles (Narrators), and Through Questioning Themselves, Their Struggle, and The Acknowledgment That They Do Need Help (Misfits), the two groups face what I want to be the ultimate thesis question of the musical: when you grow up, where does one find hope? This is my attempt at breaking down the concept of religion because ultimately, people look to a higher figure in the dream of hope and the want for answers - thus, religion cannot ultimately be taken away from people who truly want and seek it. But we gotta deconstruct the narrative that hope is only limited to these religious institutions - and criticism must be relayed to the institutions that mandate that people serve them for the hope they supposedly provide but subsequently break because of prejudice, conservatism, and close-mindedness towards the people the Bible says to serve above all.

So yea the thesis slogan is basically: grow as you go, redefine your mission, and break the script if needed be.

Also it's pop rock, very inspired by SPRING AWAKENING, we are the tigers, and a dash or rent. The songs are English when They Are Part of the Producer's script, and Tagalog when They Are Not Part of the Script (like the characters being honest or unexpected rebuttals to the narrators' preaching moments or when the narrators themselves reveal their secrets). Otherwise, dialogue is taglish YAY

[khruschevshoe]

Lucius, Izzy, and Pete Spriggs

Cause I can still remember when you were afraid of the dark

And I told you to come and you followed where I asked you to go

Would you come here and spin with me?

I've been dying to get you dizzy

Find a way up into your head

So I can make you feel like new again

-Turnover, Dizzy on the Comedown

Lucius loves Pete, yes, but that doesn't mean that he doesn't hold affection for Izzy. That this kiss, sharp and awkward as it is, doesn't mean as much as kissing Pete does.

Izzy leans in, almost unconsciously, chasing Lucius' mouth, making this real. Making this more than just a devotion, a religious act- making it two men kissing in the middle of a brawl, two pirates making something more out of the sea.

"That was really hot," Pete says as they both lean back. "Mind if I-?"

"Not at all," Lucius says with a wink.

Izzy cannot find a way to voice the feelings strangling his chest, choking his breath in the most lovely way, so he just nods.

-aletterinthenameofsanity, all I can taste is the blood in my mouth (and the bitterness in goodbye)

These three have a chokehold on me. The arc of intimacy is so delicately and well-handled, the trust they grow in each other is so grounded, and the religious metaphors are *chef's kiss.* I was so glad to see a Lucius that got to sort through his trauma to willing ears, an Izzy who got a happy ending to accompany his growth/trust arc, and a Black Pete that was complex, affectionate, and not sidelined.

@polikate @bricksbloggyplace @angxlwiings @possumsmushroom

[im-out-of-it]

part 7 of season 2, episode 13 “those of demon blood” continued

102. I can see if Alec was protecting Magnus and asking for a hair sample (inspired by recent comments.) but I think with his track record recently, the scene should have been handled differently. I’m not here to come at alec- he’s my comfort character and I love him but Magnus has been through so much trauma (it’s probably been days) that he should be able to trust Alec and Alec should trust Magnus. and I believe 100% Alec does trust Magnus and wants to keep him safe but I’m also looking at it from Magnus’s pov.

I blame the writers for this because they’re constantly making Alec go through it. and Magnus and Alec aren’t that great at balancing their relationship while one is a head of an institute soon and the other is high warlock. I just feel we needed more from Malec instead of just one sentence. we needed more communication, and actually listening to the other person. I don’t fault Alec severely for this- I know this is his first relationship and I love him but it’s the way he’s written at times that I have some issues with. I don’t think of Alec as the way CC made him but the way Matt handled his character- the same with Harry and Magnus. it’s just frustrating sometimes with how the writers handled Alec, magnus, and Malec at times

I’m sorry if I made anyone upset

103. history lesson time!!!!!!

104. I forgot this one. my mind must’ve blocked it

105. Clary acts like she doesn’t know what the holocaust was. girl you were a mundane for 17 years and went to school like how do you not know????? I’ll give her a point because Simon probably hasn’t brought up his family past. I just know a lot of it because I love history and I’m European so I tend to favor more European history. the amount of books I have of it is unreal lmao and I have them stacked all over my place randomly

106. Simon: I’m not about to be chipped, tracked, and murdered. no fucking thank you. my family has been around this block before

106. this is one of my favorite Simon moments because I love history, I love seeing Simon get emotional about his family, and Simon saying no that he won’t be tracked or treated as he is inferior

107. and I won’t bore y’all with history because I know it’s not everyone’s cup of tea ☕️

108. and it’ll start as a piece of DNA now, but then it’s going to be tracking them, chipping them, hunting them down, and killing them without cause- breaking the accords. there’s a very nazi mentality in the dark artifices. it’s been fucking forever since I read it because Julian and Emma are insufferable and I felt the way CC went about it was terrible. (anyone remember when she had a villain say how gross clary and jace were for dating while thinking they were siblings just to make the comments seem vile and evil)

but it’s a similar to the show and I think the show and the books were written around the same time so who knows who inspired her (but I also wouldn’t put it past CC who made TMI based on her Harry Potter fanfics) but the way the show handled it is so much better

109. its nice to see Simon talking about his past and being Jewish. we see him praying once when Jocelyn dies, and I’m not super religious (I stay the hell away from it.) so I won’t go on and on about it. (okay fine I’ll spill- I don’t like a religion being forced on someone and I’ve had way too many Christian’s try to tell me I’m sick because it’s gods plan) (like get the fuck out of here lmao) but I still respect Simons storyline with being Jewish and his customs. show Simon is so more bearable than book Simon for sure

110. kaelie trying to do us all a favor and I thank her for it

111. Max is so slick, definitely takes after Maryse

112. I love this call back

113. Max: can’t you see that I’m the best? 🥹

I love how Izzy and Alec are always smiling and proud of max. he’s got the best brother and sister

114. Dot has returned and Magnus is drinking

doing another part, stopping at 115

[our-flag-means-love]

earlier this year i made this playlist with the target audience of Specifically Myself, comprised of s1's story and some s2 predictions, but as you may have noticed, s2 has since come out. as such, i think it's time for:

Ed x Stede, as told by The Killers (SEASON 2 UPDATE)

19 songs, 76 minutes in total.

(also on youtube, if you don't use spotify or aren't able to listen in order, which is the recommended way of consuming it)

in addition to adding new songs, i'm also going to be revising my explanations throughout the whole playlist, so even if you read the s1 post, there will be some new stuff to enjoy too!

explanation and lyric highlights for each song can be found under the cut. last time i tried to keep things concise but this time all bets are off. a full paragraph per song.

also! i recognize that an hour and 16 minutes is quite the time investment to ask of anyone, so here is my recommendation for abridged listening, the songs for which i think listening to the whole thing really does enhance the experience: #5, #7, #10, #14, #18, #19, clocking in at 24 minutes. and if you're going to listen to ONE SONG, make it #14.

(lyrics are mostly taken from genius but a few parts are just what i know to be true in my heart if i think genius is wrong)

1. boy

this can be read as either an ed childhood song or a stede childhood song, or both. feeling awkward in your own skin, feeling confined to your hometown and unable to reach your full potential. things i definitely think both of them felt as they grew up.

these streets / weren't meant to house / jet-fueled engine dreams

2. When You Were Young

BANGER ALERT!!! this song is for sure about ed's childhood and religious trauma because i mean come ON.

you sit there in your heartache / waiting on some beautiful boy to / to save you from your old ways

he doesn't look a thing like jesus / but he talks like a gentleman / like you imagined when you were young

3. I Can't Stay

my apologies for jumping straight from the arguably best song on this playlist to the definitely worst song on this playlist. but it had to be done, because this one's about stede leaving mary.

in the dark / for a while now /[...]/ i can't stay / much longer / riding my decision home

4. The Man

this one's about Blackbeard™. despite the title, this is the "myth" and "legend" part of the phrase "the man, the myth, the legend." tall, broad, head made of smoke, nine guns, etc. the terror of the seven seas.

don't try to teach me / i got nothing to learn / 'cause baby i'm gifted

i got skin in the game / i don't feel no pain / i got news for you baby, you're looking at the man

5. Flesh And Bone

another BANGER ALERT!!! and remember how i brought up "the man, the myth, the legend"? well, this is the "man" part, because as it turns out, ed is an actual person too. one who's aging and growing tired of piracy.

but i'm not sure how / this natural selection / picked me out to be / a dark horse running in a fantasy

what are you afraid of? / and what are you made of? / flesh and bone / and i'm running out of time

6. Tidal Wave

they! are! in! love! for the first verse the pronouns could be read either way, but then for the second verse "he" is stede and "she" is ed (you'll see why) bc damnit i'm taking this song from the hets, it's mine now.

you say this life has given you nothing / you got another thing coming

now the story of / forbidden love / has gotta make a stand

7. Andy, You're A Star

on a surface level reading, this song is about high school sports. but if you dig a bit deeper, the izzy can be found. in this song, the narrator greatly admires andy and his skills, but uh oh! andy is prioritizing love over fame and success! this simply will not do!

in a car with a girl / promise me she's not your world / 'cause andy, you're a star / in nobody's eyes but mine

8. Mr. Brightside

is this song overplayed? hell yes! is it also the best song to illustrate stede's feelings about ed and calico jack! you bet your ass it is!

jealousy / turning saints into the sea / swimming through sick lullabies / choking on your alibis

9. Neon Tiger

the law has finally caught up with stede, but ed is determined to protect him from chauncey's wrath at all costs. gonna be honest, this song might be the weakest fit on this whole list. so sue me, idk.

you're far too pure and bold / to suffer the strain of the hand and its hold

run neon tiger / there's a price on your head / they'll hunt you down and gut you / i'll never let 'em touch you

10. Leave The Bourbon On The Shelf

once again, BANGER ALERT!!! who's jennifer? we only know stede bonnet. and ed misses him. he's drinking and depressed in his blanket fort and ready to snap with enough prodding (from izzy, obvs). for the last 10-ish seconds, i want you to picture ed's smile right before he pushes lucius overboard.

before you say goodbye / leave the bourbon on the shelf / and i'll drink it by myself / and i love you endlessly / darling, don't you see? / i'm not satisfied / until i hold you tight

11. Everything Will Be Alright

stede is determined to find ed and do whatever it takes to get to him. he's not ready to believe that they're over. they're just on a break.

i'm coming to find you / if it takes me all night / wrong until / you make it right

you don't need to compromise / i'm dreaming 'bout those dreamy eyes

12. The Rising Tide

in my s1 playlist i referred to this as an angry ed breakup song, but upon further examination, i really think ed is the person the song is about rather than the narrator (although tbh, imagining both the "i"s and the "you"s as ed works solidly well). this song represents his mental health spiral.

before life and the dream collide / 'cause the truth's gonna come and cut me open wide

and the company you keep / well they plan your crucifixion as we speak

13. Rut

now ed's in the gravy basket. part of him wants to give up, but the rest wants to keep fighting, he's just not sure how. this song—particularly the ending, the desperation in the repeated "don't you give up on me"s—is also ed's pov of the eventual reunion.

i've done my best defending / but the punches are starting to land / i'm sliding into something you won't understand

but don't give up on me / 'cause i'm just in a rut / i'm climbing but the walls keep stacking up

14. My List

this and #18 are the songs i couldn't make work on the s1 playlist that i'm so glad i got to include this time. god i love this one so much and it's so perfect for stede's pov of the reunion. the quiet lamentation in the first half. the desperation in the second half. top tier shit. it's so perfectly stede in that scene. move over, kate bush.

and when you come back in from nowhere / do you ever think of me?

when your heart / is not able / and your prayers / they're not fables /[...]/ let me show you how much i care

15. Have All The Songs Been Written?

now the boys need to talk, and maybe stede has some apologizing to do. he knows how much he hurt ed, and he wants to make amends. he wants to win him back over if at all possible.

have all the songs been written? / have all your needs been met? / have all these years been worth it / or am i the great regret?

i just need one more to get through to you / i can't take back what i've done wrong

16. For Reasons Unknown

this is around s2e5. they're on good terms but still insecure, still warming back up to each other, and still taking things slow. full disclosure: i let myself add this song because i was sad about having to cut "bones" and this one i could make fit better.

with one deep breath / and one big step / i move a little bit closer

and my lips / they don't kiss / they don't kiss the way they used to / and my eyes don't recognize you no more

17. Be Still

i wanted to use "bones" for when they fuck. i really really did. but it just didn't fit the tone. stede just killed someone intentionally for the first time, and he's still running on all those complicated emotions as he and ed have some of the sweetest and most awkward sex ever imagined by man.

don't break character / you've got a lot of heart / is this real or just a dream?

when you come back / tell me, what did you see? / was there something out there for me?

18. A Matter Of Time

UNDERRATED DEEP CUT ALERT!!! as mentioned in #14, i'm psyched to include this song. this is their s2e7 breakup. the drama, the conflict. stede laughing with his girlfriends, so to speak, as ed sits in his own emotions. two people trying and failing to make it work.

i see you / laughing with your girlfriends / not a care in the world / not a burden on your mind / it was a matter of time

can't you see that it's tearing me up inside? / look what's laying at our feet / that's the wreckage of broken dreams

19. All These Things That I've Done

one final time, with conviction: BANGER ALERT!!! ed has to come to terms with himself. he must accept the parts of him that can kill and the parts of him that can love in equal measure. it's the only way for him to find peace, and to hold on long enough to retire with stede.

these changes ain't changing me / the cold-hearted boy i used to be

while everyone's lost / the battle is won / with all these things that i've done

if you've stuck around with me for this long, THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR READING! hopefully either your brain was already as rotted by this band as mine is or i've indoctrinated you by now. i'm also in the (slow, very very slow) process of making a video edit set to "all these things that i've done" and i'll update this post with the link when (if) that's eventually done!

[warmhappycat]

I hope it’s ok that I took this idea and then wrote a bunch about it. Not fic exactly, just thoughts, some of which approach fic.

I both love and hate posts like this. I love them because OP is brilliant, and this idea is good, and it would have been such a small change but such a dramatic improvement. And I hate them because OP is just a random internet person who came up with a great idea that would have been so easy to implement and make the season so much better, and all the paid professionals did… what they did… instead.

There’s something about seeing how easy it would have been to make it great that makes it even more frustrating that it wasn’t.

It doesn’t make any fucking sense that Izzy “I should have let the English kill you, [you] namby-pamby in a silk gown pining for [your] boyfriend” Hands would do drag and sing so that the crew could slack off and Ed could have sex with someone else. I feel very confident that he would rather die than do any of those things, and his “development” in season 2 was too weird and rushed for me to believe that he had become that kind of person.

But,

I found it believable that he had softened his position on “namby-pamby-ness” (hard to put your foot down about it with all those missing toes, huh Izzy?). I found it believable that he wanted Lucius to get better (or at least stop complaining) about his trauma. So if we had a turn of events in which the crew found out that Izzy largely sparked Ed’s whole violent spiral, then we could have had an arc where Lucius is demanding recompense from Izzy the same way he did with Ed, and that could have ended in this.

Maybe Lucius heard Izzy humming or singing in the bath or something. I find it hard to believe that Izzy would initiate himself singing in public, but if Lucius discovers he has a nice voice, and he feels that Izzy owes him something, maybe he would ask. Maybe he would say, “I want you to sing at my wedding. You were horrible to me about being a ‘seductress,’ you treated my intimacy with Pete like it was dirty, you lit the fuse that sent me overboard, and you rowed Pete out to some island to starve to death and rot under the hot sun. Sing at our wedding, bitch.”

And now there’s an actual catalyst for gradual, believable change! Like, it’s not that I think living with and watching Ed during his kraken era wouldn’t also catalyze change, but I find it unlikely that someone who has been shown so far to be emotionally abusive, disdainful of feelings, and just generally to have the emotional depth of a teaspoon would able to intuit all of the correct lessons from that circumstance and very quickly execute them to near-perfection. That’s just a new guy! They just body-swapped Izzy Hands with a different guy!

But in this scenario, he doesn’t have to become enlightened. He just has to decide whether or not he’s going to sing a song - whether or not he’s going to do something nice for someone he’s hurt, because they asked him to. Maybe he’s not ready to make amends and take accountability and become emotionally vulnerable and be honest and totally turn his personality and relationships around, but Lucius is being really annoying about it and the whole crew is on his side and Stede keeps yapping about “poison into positivity” and even Ed says, “at least all he wants you to do is sing; I let him push me off the boat!”, and so he concedes to do it.

But maybe at first he won’t say what song he’s going to sing. Maybe he’s really grouchy about the whole thing, and openly debating whether he should sing some random sea shanty or dumb drinking song or maybe an old religious hymn, just to pour cold water on this gay event. We could have a cute scene of Lucius second guessing his decision to push for this, worried that Izzy will ruin the wedding, and then Pete saying that the wedding will be great no matter what Izzy does, he couldn’t possibly ruin it even if he tried, because they’re getting married(!!!!), and besides, he thinks it’s hot that Lucius bullied Izzy into this and won.

And then the wedding scene comes, and Izzy’s just kind of vocalizing while Pete and Lucius enter. It’s more like an instrumental piece than someone singing, but it’s nice. They have the ceremony, and the kiss, and just as they’re breaking apart and the cheering is starting to die down, we hear…

🎵 Hold me close and hold me fast, this magic spell you cast… 🎵

Because he chose nice. He had every opportunity to be that nasty little rat man from season 1, to rain piss and vinegar on this happy, gay, lovely moment, and he chose to be nice instead. Maybe when he gets to “and when we kiss…” he even gestures at them to kiss again, and visibly smiles when everyone starts dancing.

It wouldn’t be a sign that he’s a totally cool guy now, or that the ways he hurt people in the past don’t matter anymore, or even that he can be trusted to never do it again. But it would be real, tangible, believable proof that he is capable of being that, and that he’s trying to change. Con O’Neill once said in a panel that Izzy wants to be better, he just doesn’t know how. I love that thought, but I never saw anything in canon that supported it. I think this would though! Someone gave him a very clear request to do something pretty simple, just because it was the kind of nice thing that other people on the Revenge do for each other. He was given that opportunity, and took it, and exceeded all expectations. That would have made more sense to me, and therefore, would have been more impactful.

if calypso's birthday had been the lupete wedding btw. that means - ok, i talked about how the way izzy's redemption arc works in the second half of the season is by taking every shitty thing he did in s1 and kind of symbolically reversing it to atone for it, right? so he already got "being kind of nice to lucius" as one of the beats last episode but this means the singing would be specifically blessing lucius and pete's union. the first clearly & actively homophobic thing he did in s1 was harass lucius & pete for having sex, and then here he'd be working to make their wedding romantic. nice gesture and honestly helps explain what they were going for with the decision to have izzy sing: it's not just, or even primarily, about ed and stede.

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I do not claim any ownership to any images or art on this blog unless otherwise stated.

FC: Neil Mcdonough

Aesthetics and art by Nightshade.

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Mun does not equal muse. Mun does not condone Carson's actions.

There is no redeeming Carson. He is set in his ways and will not change. He is a zelot and drunk on power. He is rotten to his very core.

He can die but has a countless amount of backup bodies to download his consciousness into. The bodies will vary in age.

There is a lot of dark topics including but not limited to: torture, abuse, genocide, murder, brain washing, kidnapping, torture of children, forced surgical procedures, cult like behavior, worship of non god entity, religious trauma, racism, classism, xenophobia, gore, non consensual sexual acts (will be described not role played and only as story elements will not be graphic and only if discussed beforehand), forced pregnancies using eldritch materials, genetic modifications. More will be added if they come up.

Regarding sex: it will not be written in rp format. If sex is involved it will be implied. If sexual torture is mentioned it will not be written in a sexual way. It will be written to explain what will be involved. It will not be written explicitly and will not happen unless given written consent by other party.

He is rich beyond compare and will pay to control local authorities and other groups to ensure that no crimes are brought to light. News is moderately controlled by the church. Muses from a reporter background will not be able to post groundbreaking stories about what he's done. The media will censor everything about him as he pads their wallets.

He enjoys tormenting children as they are weaker than him. If this bothers you do not bring up children around him.

Don't be an asshole.

I reserve the right to stop an rp at any time for any reason. I will not rp in dms. I will not rp Carson off tumblr outside of a few trusted discord servers.

He is tied to the world I've been building and most of it is headcanon based. I can put him in new worlds but he will be tied back to his original world.

Unless otherwise specified all interactions are their own separate worlds. No timelines intersect so no two characters will know what is going on between them.

No godmodding or trying to steal my character.

If you don't like him don't write with him.

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Standing Watch

by JupiterMelichios

“Why the fuck does Bonnet think the crew wants to celebrate Easter, then?”

“He liked it when he was a kid. Says it was the only bit of church he ever looked forward to. He wants the crew to have that.”

“At your expense?” Much as Izzy hates to admit it, that doesn’t sound like Bonnet’s style. He dotes on Edward, in his own weird way. He wouldn’t do anything to hurt him on purpose. “You haven’t told him, have you?”

  Ed's dealing with some old ghosts. Izzy is surprisingly helpful.

Words: 2537, Chapters: 1/1, Language: English

Series: Part 5 of The Lucius Spriggs School of Healthy Non-Monogamy

Fandoms: Our Flag Means Death (TV)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Categories: M/M

Characters: Blackbeard | Edward Teach, Israel Hands

Relationships: Blackbeard | Edward Teach/Israel Hands, background Edward Teach/Stede Bonnet - Relationship

Additional Tags: Religious Guilt, Edward Teach Has Religious Trauma, Polyamory, Childhood Trauma, Traumatized Blackbeard | Edward Teach, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Israel Hands Loves Blackbeard | Edward Teach, Blackbeard | Edward Teach Needs a Hug, Blackbeard | Edward Teach Gets a Hug, Married Blackbeard | Edward Teach/Israel Hands, Bipolar Blackbeard | Edward Teach, References to Depression, Izzy is doing his best to be a supportive husband, with his 1 coping skill, just traumatised people loving and supporting one another, Jewish Israel Hands

source https://archiveofourown.org/works/47206540

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I think Izzy has a deep appreciation for the finer things. It just looks different than the way Stede or even Ed approach them.

It's in the way he gently puts down the miniature ship from Stede's room, where he could've very easily break it. It's in the way he keeps his hair pushed back, his clothing always neat and elegant.

It's obviously just a headcanon, but I think that growing up Izzy's family wasn't well-off, at least not most of the time. Perhaps he grew up in a modest upbringing where discipline and modesty were drilled into his head all the time. Perhaps he spent his childhood and adolescence longingly staring at beautiful things in displays of the shops in the town where he grew up, feeling pangs of guilt over wanting things his family would call "frivolous".

Perhaps his family stepped into wealth quite suddenly, and all but Izzy himself became drunk with money. Perhaps their nouveau riche way of being made Izzy despise people who overindulge in the goods around them. Perhaps that was all the more reason for him to become a pirate - he imagined living rough, wearing ragged clothes and eating any scraps he manages to catch.

But then, the most extraordinary thing happened. An Edward Teach appeared on his path, a man who came from a background even more modest than his own, but completely lacking Izzy's guilt over indulging in the finer things in life.

Ed insisted that Izzy wear nice clothes, and Izzy didn't protest when, after looting a ship of vacationing aristocrats, he was handed a mountain of clothes, and tasked with choosing something nice for himself.

The ring on his tie was a personal touch from Ed. Izzy didn't protest.

So that was fine. Edward liked fine things, and Izzy liked Edward, whether he realised it or not.

But then - Stede.

A man so deeply reminding him of his own family as if he did it just to anger Izzy specifically.

He surrounded himself with beauty simply because he could and did things on a whim, and Edward loved that.

And it was Izzy's personal hell.

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I love how the PCs are far less willing to "consider both sides" and be merciful this campaign, like there's a brutality very similar to late-game ACoC where the characters, due to their traumas and their hard-won beliefs, will fight back against the religious oppression and evil that they've faced without trying to moralize and understand each villain who has individually enacted violence upon them and their loved ones, even though Murph does make sure to make all the factions and npcs complex and three-dimensional.

Like obviously empathy is incredibly important and everyone has their traumas and their reasonings behind the awful things they do, but at the same time you cannot blame every bad action on a tragic backstory, and having the protagonists forgive/redeem every person who has hurt them is imo a bit of a betrayal to those characters, so I'm happy they went the direction they did with this story. Its something they've talked about on the short rests a bunch, and I do think it ends up making for some very interesting storytelling.

Like, Stella is vaguely triggering for me to listen to as someone who grew up with an extremely manipulative parent (that whole line where she was like "its you and me against the world Zirky!" was... a lot) and the whole time I kept expecting them to just kind of brush it off and let Stella be semi-adopted into the group as like this "quirky zany character who's a little morally grey but her heart's in the right place!". And so it was so surprising and cathartic when Zirk just told her off and said he wanted nothing to do with her anymore, like I'm so not used to that kind of narrative.

Or with Izzie, Henry’s ex-wife, like they let her just be a person who is terrible in most ways but still loves her son without making it into like a fairytale thing where she's secretly good but forced into this by her circumstances. I don’t know, something about the way morality is approached in Eldermourne just really gets to me in a great way

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I have like. Barely thought about the Guerra sisters but someone said that they should be Filipino and now I’m VERY 👀👀👀 and I am having THOUGHTS about them and growing up like!!!

Ok I have a lot of thoughts and this got long so if you are interested read under the cut (cw for talks about Catholicism, mentions of weight, and not great family dynamics)

Izzie and Atlas cooking with their Lola who immigrated to the states and who just. Throws money at them when their parents aren’t looking but who cares about them deeply and wants them to have a strong sense of family tradition and thinks the best way of doing that is through cooking and baking for them.

Izzie who really loves their Lola and all the recipes that Lola gave her but hates how religious her family is and going to church and how uncomfortable it all is for her but who always gets a card saying Jesus Loves You for Christmas and hates how her Lola talks about Christianity and the Philippines because she can TELL how much of it is from growing up in colonial Philippines. She doesn’t really know how to feel about being her Lola’s perfect granddaughter who cooks and cleans and listens to her. Izzie doesn’t like being the “good” one and she doesn’t like leaving Atlas behind but she doesn’t want to be treated as badly as Atlas is by their family so she stays quiet because she likes doing all of the stuff her family wants her to be, and when she does the things they like it makes it easier for her to do what she wants to do in her spare time– learn to play blaseball.

Meanwhile Atlas is here and as they get older they just hate how restrictive her parents are and get so FRUSTRATED with all the RULES and like gets really embarrassed by her culture and her parents accent and the fact that she has to take leftovers for lunch every day to school and hates how her family treats her because she’s not as perfect as Izzie and she doesn’t love doing all the housewife training stuff that Lola and their mom taught them. She loves playing blaseball and sloftball and getting rough and singing karaoke too loudly at big family parties but her family doesn’t LIKE that because she’s not PERFECT like IZZIE is and it just makes her madder because why does IZZIE get to be interested in blaseball and get praised for it but when SHE does it they tell her to wear dresses and be more like Izzie.

(Izzie got into blaseball so she could feel closer to her sister, Atlas thinks she’s just trying to take something else from her.)

And then they sign onto different teams and just let their hatred and jealously feed into each other. Izzie signed in KC, near their hometown, and Atlas chose to join a team that was as far as her parents would let her. They never talk at Chicago/KC games. They go to family gatherings even after they’ve both signed and everyone talks to them and praises them and gives them money even though they don’t need it because they’re proud and they all bet on blaseball anyways, its easier and more lucrative than the casino now, and still they compliment Izzie on her playing more even though it was Atlas who was on the team in high school and she should be the one who they should be proud of instead of Izzie who only got into it as a HOBBY but now they’re complimenting her on using their Lola’s recipes in her bakery (that she OWNS and PURCHASED using her blaseball money, the family asks Atlas why she hasn’t done anything useful with her money yet and she just says she’s saving it. She doesn’t want to own a business) and she doesn’t have time to be mad at it just be Tired. They ask her why she hasn’t lost any weight yet even if she’s been playing blaseball all this time and she just shrugs it off because it’s nothing she hasn’t heard before

When Atlas gets transferred to KC in Season 3 she doesn’t know how to feel. She’s mostly angry. Izzie on the other hand is just so scared of doing something wrong because she doesn’t know how to make their relationship better and she KNOWS she’s the one who fucked it up and she wants to make it better but Atlas is so resentful and she knows she deserves this but she doesn’t know how to reach out. She tried to reach out to their parents and tell them to be nicer to her because she doesn’t think that they love her but they just insist that they’re only doing what’s best for her so that she could have everything that they didn’t and then they just start talking about Immigrating to the states and American dream stuff and how Atlas should be more like her and she has to take everything she has to not hang up the phone.

Izzie stops going to church after Atlas transfers to KC. It isn’t immediate but it does happen. Atlas had stopped going years ago when she came out to their parents and they didn’t react well (they didn’t react badly either, but the thought of going back to that church with all those people who she knew were judging her and praying for her family made her skin crawl) but they didn’t kick her out. Izzie saw that and kept her sexuality to herself for YEARS because she was so scared that her parents would hate her for not being the perfect child they thought she was 

When Izzie comes out their family reacts way worse, like she expected, and she’s hurt and sad and doesn’t know what to do. She doesn’t want to talk to Atlas about it because she doesn’t want to burden her but she so desperately wants to TALK to her and it’s hard. They don’t really get the chance to until they’re shopping for the things they need to send back to the Philippines one year and it’s awkward but they get through it. They get into some petty argument in the car on the way to their parents house and suddenly they’re shouting and somehow Atlas says something about Izzie being their parents favorite and suddenly Izzie is crying and Atlas is SCARED bc Izzie NEVER cries and Izzie has to pull over to just cry and suddenly she’s telling Atlas everything and Atlas is MORTIFIED because she didn’t KNOW that Izzie was also queer and she felt so bad for treating her like the enemy when really they were on the same team here. And Izzie is apologizing for not standing up for her and for just letting their parents say all that stuff to her and it’s not instant forgiveness because you can’t just erase years of trauma and complicated relationships in a few seconds, but there is understanding.

They aren’t ok right away but they do start talking. About their parents, about their culture, about being ex catholic, about blaseball and just. Start healing. Izzie renames the bakery to what it is now, as a threat to any and all Gods because it’s what tore her family apart and made her and her sister hate each other for so long. Colonialism and religion is what ruined her life and she’s gonna take it all back. Atlas is trying to regain the time spent hating her sister and being mad at the world and trying to do some things to heal, like getting back in touch with her culture after she pushed it away for so long and trying to unpack her trauma in a more constructive way. They both try to start repairing their relationship with their parents. It’s not easy, but they’re all trying.

Eventually, Atlas decides to take up a position in Izzie’s bakery. It’s not perfect and they’ll never be fully ok, but they have each other’s backs and that’s enough for them.

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SHADOWHUNTERS - Created by Ed Decter - Based on The Mortal Instruments by Cassandra Clare

Content Warning - Mentions of abuse, suicide, self harm, internalised homophobia and drugs.

The Netflix show Shadowhunters has a lot of important topics to talk about. These include sexuality, grief, addiction, religion and mental illness.

Firstly, the Warlock, Magnus. Magnus Bane is an openly bisexual male who doesn't conform to gender roles. He is not ashamed to talk about his past relationships with both men and women, which is something that is not really seen within the LGBT community. People often hide their sexuality or gender identity due to fear of being treated differently, but Magnus is so open about his sexuality. He is not ashamed of who he is and is proud of his identity, something everyone should aspire to be, regardless of their gender identity or sexuality.

Magnus embraces his femininity, unlike a lot of cisgender men. He wears makeup (specifically eyeliner, which he describes as his tiger stripes) and paints his nails, something which is a stereotypically feminine trait (although that is slowly changing). As well as this, a lot of his clothing could be described as 'feminine'. This shows other LGBTQ+ people that they are able to embrace their femininity regardless of their gender identity; Things should not be gendered. Experimenting with your gender expression should not be looked down on. Everyone should be able to be free to express themselves however they want without fear of judgement. Magnus’ character is the embodiment of this. He is never judged for how he expresses himself.

Magnus is also shown to struggle with the loss of magic and therefore turns to alcohol, which is a very negative coping mechanism. He ends up having a breakdown in front of his (at the time) boyfriend as a result of drinking too much and not being able to cope with his magic being taken away. Magnus has friends who help him through his loss, especially Alec, who reminds him he is no less of a person without his magic and that he still loves him regardless. People often turn to alcohol or drugs as they believe it will distract them from their issues, which is why this portrayal is very true to the real world. Magnus feels a loss of identity through losing his magic, which is to be expected since he has has magic for over four hundred years. He feels powerless and useless without this huge part of him, however he is lucky to have a huge support system to help him through his dark times.

As well as the trauma from losing his magic twice, Magnus also suffers from PTSD due to events of his past. When body swapped with Valentine, the Clave use the agony rune on Magnus as a form of torture to get him to tell them where the Mortal Cup is. The rune only ends up bringing up past trauma which he has spent centuries trying to bury. After returning to his body, Magnus talks to Alec about what he did and explains that he never wanted Alec to see this ugly side of him. Showing Magnus so vulnerable and talking about his trauma shows people that opening up can help them move on from events of the past. Alec is extremely comforting towards Magnus and expresses how he thinks there is nothing ugly about him. This seems to be a huge relief for Magnus.

Next, Shadowhunter Alec. Alec Lightwood is one of the few gay characters who hasn't been portrayed in a stereotypical way. He is the leader of the New York Institute and is incredibly masculine, which is very different to how gay men are usually portrayed in the media. Having a (now openly) gay man be someone that high up in status is important as it shows other gay or LGBTQ+ people that they can do everything that a non LGBTQ+ person can do and more. By being open about the fact he is gay to the rest of the Institute, it gives other LGBTQ+ Shadowhunters the confidence to be able to talk about their sexuality or gender, as shown by Underhill who tells Alec how inspirational he is. As well as other characters now being confident in opening up about their sexuality, a lot of fans would have also found inspiration in Alec's bravery to come out the way he did. Alec also dealt with a lot of internalised homophobia due to his status and his family, which is something a lot of people can relate to as people are often ashamed of their sexuality due to judgemental family or how society can portray the LGBTQ+ community. Alec managed to get rid of the internalised homophobia with the help of his family and friends, and his now husband. This shows to fans that there are people who support them greatly and will never judge them. Having supportive people around you can help immensely and can save someone's life.

In season 2 episode 4, Alec is possessed by a demon who uses his body to kill Jocelyn, Clary’s mother. He feels incredibly guilty about this and blames himself, despite the others telling him not to. We don’t see much more about Alec’s guilt until season 2 episode 8, in which Alec’s worst fears are brought out due to Iris’ attack on Magnus’ apartment. When talking to Clary on the balcony, he hears her blame him for her mother’s death, when in reality she is trying to talk him down from the balcony. He tries to jump, but luckily Magnus catches him before he manages to. After the attack has been resolved, Magnus talks about how magic cannot create fears, but bring them out, showing just how much Jocelyn’s death effected Alec. As well as Alec almost falling from the balcony, we see him repeatedly shoot arrows which results in his fingers bleeding. This seems like a type of self harm for him, as he doesn’t use the healing rune to fix up the wounds. Magnus points this out as well as the fact that Alec is clearly hurting due to what the demon did. He explains that Alec hopes the pain in his fingers will overpower the pain he is feeling from the guilt, but that it is not that easy. Magnus does all he can to try and comfort Alec.

In the finale of season 3B, we see Alec as Inquisitor and Magnus as High Warlock of Alicante. Previously, there would never have been a High Warlock for any of the Shadowhunter cities, as Downworlders and Shadowhunters were generally separated. By being open about their relationship and Alec being so high in power, they managed to change how the Shadowhunters treat other Downworlders. They ultimately end up working with each other instead of against. Magnus and Alec changed the world with their relationship. They ended the blatant racism between Downworlders and Shadowhunters and they are finally treated as equal.

When planning his and Magnus’ wedding, he states he would like to have it at the Institute. He explains that this is because the Clave would have to celebrate a relationship between a Shadowhunter and a Downworlder under their own roof. Having the wedding in the Institute shows how much Alec is willing to do to abolish the clear racism and hatred of Downworlders within the Clave. This, along with several other acts during the one year time skip (I imagine), had a huge effect on the perception on Downworlders and both Shadowhunters and Downworlders end up working together.

Raphael Santiago is (while nothing is explicitly said about his sexuality) an asexual vampire. He explains to Izzy that he's not interested in sex, implying he is asexual, which was then comfirmed by the book writer, Cassandra Clare. Vampires are often portrayed as sexual beings in the media, and the fact that Raphael is asexual is completely different from the norm. There isn't a lot of asexual representation in the media and is often completely forgotten about, so seeing a character be open about his asexuality to one of his friends gives representation to an often ignored sexuality. Having this kind of representation is important as it lets other asexual people know they aren't alone and also validates their feelings.

Raphael also manages to keep his faith throughout his life time despite everything he has been through. When he becomes mundane again, he talks about how he went to morning mass for the first time in 80 years. In the season finale of 3B, he states to Simon and Isabelle that he joined the seminary and is on his way to becoming a priest. Despite the hell he has been through, he still managed to keep his faith and intends to devote his life to it. To other religious people who might watch the show, it tells them that they should never give up on their faith, regardless of what they go through. Despite not being a religious person myself, I can fully understand how that may be comforting.

We see Raphael’s sister struggle with dementia as it ultimately worsens and she easily forgets who Raphael is. Despite her not knowing who he is, he visits her often and spends as much time as possible with her. In season 3 episode 3, Raphael gets a phone call from the nursing home explaining that she has passed away. This very clearly affects him a lot, and he immediately turns to Izzy for comfort. He is upset that he cannot attend her funeral due to it being during the day, so Izzy promises that she will go in his place. When he becomes mundane again, he goes to Rosa’s grave and plants flowers for her, something he hadn’t been able to do previously. I think this would have been a huge weight off of his chest.

In season 3 episode 5, the head of security, Underhill, talks to Alec about how he is an inspiration for being in a same sex relationship with a downworlder. He explains that if it wasn’t for Alec he would have never had the courage to come out to the Institute. He had to keep his private life separate from his job at the institute until Alec had the courage to show his true feelings for Magnus. This just proves how much of an inspiration Alec is to the rest of the Institute.

As well as Underhill, Shadowhunters Helen (who is half Seelie) and Aline also end up having the courage to be together. In the finale, we see them kiss at Alec and Magnus’ wedding after talking about what they could wear for their own wedding. Their relationship is a similar one to Alec and Magnus, as it is a same sex relationship and one of them is part Downworlder. If it wasn’t for Magnus and Alec being open about their relationship, I doubt they would have been able to be public with their own.

Luke Garroway’s partner, Ollie Wilson, is also in a same sex relationship. While she and her girlfriend, Sam, are a minor part of the show, it gives us another same sex relationship but with mundanes instead of the Shadow World. The two share everything with each other and seem to be in a very committed and loving relationship.

The show also deals with drug addiction, as seen in Isabelle Lightwood. Victor Aldertree gives Izzy Yin Fen, a drug made from vampire venom, as a pain relief for her demon wound. Yin Fen is immediately addicting and Aldertree gives her a jar of it to use when she needs it. Once she finds out what it is from the Iron Sisters, she tried to stay clean, but ends up suffering from really bad withdrawals. In response to this, she tries to find some vampires who are willing to feed from her to get her fix of venom. Raphael agrees to do this, which only gets him addicted to her blood. They both agree that it would be best for them both to stop. Izzy then uses candy as a way to control her withdrawals. Through this and the support of her brother, she manages to stay clean.

Abuse is also heavily dealt with. Johnathan, Clary’s brother, was sent to Edom at a young age and suffered torture from Lilith. She burned him constantly, and when he returned to Earth, he continued to burn himself as a sort of reminder. As well as physically abusing Johnathan, Lilith also mentally abused him, telling him that no one would come for him. This clearly affected him for the rest of his life and he continues to struggle with the trauma of the abuse. When connected by the twinning rune, the behaviour of burning himself was also transferred to Clary. They slowly become more connected and behaviours are shared.

Every topic discussed within the show was dealt with in a very mature and understanding way. With such heavy topics being included, there is always the potential for there to be bad writing as people often struggle to understand certain concepts, but they were all very well written and dealt with maturely. All of these things combined have made Shadowhunters one of the most representative shows to ever exist. These are the reasons why it has become one of my favourite shows and why I will never let it go, even though it’s officially over. It didn’t deserve to end at all, but I’m just glad we got to have this amazing show exist in the first place.

Thank you to the cast and crew, who have done an amazing job portraying some of the best characters and storylines. Thank you for making me and a lot of others feel like they aren’t alone in the world.

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criminal minds rewrite, with jemily endgame

rewrite 1: jemily was always gonna happen

s2e18, jones: jj wakes up with emily in her bed. it is implied that this isn’t the first time this has happened, and when jj suggests they stop, emily gets upset. they begin avoiding each other. the team notices but they don’t comment on it until they’re alone. jj is hit on by will but she struggles with her own feelings about emily and eventually brushes off will by explaining she’s in love with someone else. episode concludes with her approaching emily about their relationship, and it is implied they make up.

s3e17, in heat: it is revealed emily and jj are still sleeping together and “kinda maybe” dating but are super quiet about it. they meet will in florida and he accidentally outs them to the team, as he figured it out when they were in new orleans and thought the rest of the team knew. emily was already out, but jj is worried about the implications of being in an out relationship despite her team’s reassurances. episode concludes with emily telling jj she understands if she still wants to be secret, but jj takes a deep breath, locks eyes with her, and tells her “no. i need to be me. and that means loving you, no matter what.” and then they passionately make out.

s3e18, the crossing: end of the episode, jj tells emily she’s expecting their first kid. emily just loses it and bawls her eyes out. (she’s trans and sired the baby)

s3e20, lo-fi: the rest of the team finds out about the pregnancy when jj is hit with morning sickness and everyone’s like “lol are you pregnant or something” and she’s quiet for a moment too long and they’re like “oh my god you’re pregnant”

s4e7, memorium: agent todd flirts a little with emily, but emily kindly explains she’s dating jj and jj is carrying their child. todd is mortified but emily and jj think it’s cute. when jj goes into labor, emily cannot stop crying. she’s afraid to hold henry at first, but when she does, she cries even harder. she’s a fucking baby. also garcia and reid are still named their godparents, or honorary uncles and aunties since neither are particularly religious.

emily keeps showing the team pictures of henry when jj’s gone. all she does is talk about henry. everyone makes fun of her for it but secretly they’re glad she’s so happy.

s6e2, jj: jj still leaves for the pentagon. she and emily still live together, just different jobs.

s6e2-e18: jj doesn’t know about emily’s past, and emily doesn’t know about her afghanistan mission. emily never wanted to think about her old life, and jj didn’t want to burden emily.

s6e18, lauren: when emily disappears, jj isn’t targeted by doyle because she was in afghanistan and henry was with her mom, who took him to disneyland that week (whatever, rough timelines). she’s notified and her son and mom put into protective custody and immediately joins the bau to track down emily and doyle. jj is the one to ride in the ambulance with emily to the hospital and is also holding her hand when she codes. she nearly loses it when emily comes back. jj then makes the call, transferring her to a different hospital and calling only hotch. when emily wakes up from her operation, jj explains everything before going back to the original hospital and telling the team. “blackbird” is still a thing, just more kissing on the jet. her two weeks in paris with her are her last for a very long time. scrabble is still their only communication. jj tells henry that emily will be with them soon and he just has to wait. no one has the heart to tell him otherwise. little did they know—

s6e18–s6e24: her daughter was conceived in paris, and this is when the horrible afghanistan mission went down. jj doesn’t think about it much. she doesn’t tell emily until much, much later.

s7e1, it takes a village: jj rejoins the bau and brings back emily. they kiss a lot.

s7e6, epilogue: when emily brings up her death, jj is startled, as that was a memory she specifically pushed away because of how painful it was.

s7e23, hit: fluffy domestic jemily in the beginning. emily is a bit off and jj asks why. emily tells her not to worry about it. the whole interpol situation is brought up, and emily brushes off jj’s insistance. emily is sent in undercover with another cop to try and sneak in, but their lines are cut short after two gunshots. jj loses it. just as the ranks move in, the bombs go off.

s7e24, run: emily is taken as the hostage this time. izzy still fucks with jj and henry and jj beats her up. morgan finds emily with the bomb strapped to her, and emily tells morgan to go. he snaps at her— “i’m not leaving you. not ever.” it’s a callback to when morgan found her impaled by doyle and blamed himself for her “death”. i love parallels. the bomb is dismantled. in the hospital, emily talks with jj about interpol. jj encourages her to take the job since it’s a huge promotion. they’ll still see each other, just not always. jj doesn’t take it well but she tries. it’s not a wedding but a going-away party. jj and emily kiss tenderly before emily turns and walks away.

s8-s9: jj is on her phone a lot and smiling; it is implied she’s looking at emily’s texts.

s9e14, 200: when jj is kidnapped, her disappearance is noted by sandy, who was watching henry and was supposed to pick him up that morning. first thing hotch does is call emily, but she’s on an assignment without service. a few hours later, he calls her again, and that’s when she flies over. same thing, yada yada. blackbird. she finds and saves her. they kiss so much. emily stays with her for the next few weeks making sure jj recovers before moving back to interpol.

s10e11, the forever people: when jj’s trauma is called out by reid, he calls emily, who flies over. she stays with her as she breaks down. michael is conceived during this time period.

s11e1, the job: when jj calls hotch, emily is home with her, having taken a few months off for maternity leave

s11e7, target rich: one of the new framed photos on jj’s desk is of emily holding michael.

s11e19, tribute: basically the entire episode, except in the beginning emily wakes up by herself. the episode continues as usual, they just hold hands and touch each other and kiss each other more. when tara first meets her, she says “oh, jj’s girlfriend” and emily’s smile is so big.

s12e3, taboo: emily greets the team joyfully. luke doesn’t realize she and jj are together until the end of the episode when he realizes she’s the woman holding michael in one of jj’s photos.

s12e6, elliot’s pond: emily moves back to the states. jj is overjoyed.

during cases they’re professional but occasionally brush hands and touch shoulders.

s14e5, the tall man: domestic jemily fluff in the beginning. emily gives jj the opportunity to opt out of this case since it’s in e. alleghany, but jj still goes. emily already knows the details about rosaline’s suicide and helps ground jj. at the end she gives jj her new necklace. they cuddle. they are in Love.

s14e15, truth or dare: it’s emily and jj who are kidnapped. emily has the gun, but while emily is telling jj about her truth (it’s a lie btw, she says smth like i never loved you or whatever), jj is the one who sees the unsub raise the gun to shoot emily, yells out emily’s name and launches herself to take the shot meant for emily. emily shoots the unsub, but not before jj is sprawled over her, bleeding out. emily begs for jj to stay awake and that she never meant it, that jj was and is and will always be her one true love and that she had bought a ring and was gonna propose to her after this case and— jj’s eyes close.

s15e1, (different name cause no chameleon): okay the canon s15 opening two-parter doesn’t happen cause i think it’s stupid. s15e1 picks up directly off of where s14e15 leaves off as a cliffhanger. jj recovers. shyly mentions that she wouldn’t mind being married to emily. they kiss. emily officially proposes. everyone claps.

s15e4, saturday: emily takes off and gets super drunk at matt’s. jj works the case.

s15e8, rusty: mendoza doesn’t exist. at the end of the episode, they’re lying in bed, and emily, thinking about how lonely the unsub was, asks, “jj?” jj murmurs. emily says, “i love you.” they snuggle even closer. the light catches on their engagement rings, hands locked together.

s15e9, face off: i don’t care about the chameleon. the beginning shows emily and jj planning their wedding and getting a little overwhelmed. the unsub is garcia’s stalker. at the end, the unsub captures garcia, but emily and jj rescue her. tara and luke follow the unsub after he’s escaped. tara tricks him, and luke shoots him.

s15e10, and in the end: aftermath is resolved. garcia opts to step down from the bau and go work at the nonprofit. she struggles with telling the team. jj and emily have their wedding at rossi’s house. rossi announces his retirement. garcia announces her departure. luke asks her out. jj and emily kiss. the kids are cute. all is good.

[castielcampbell]

I don't think people appreciate the fact that Michael Guerin isn't a fooking psychopath.

Cos let's be real, this dude has the backstory of a villian.

Wasn't adopted with his siblings

Placed with meth heads

Placed with angry drunk

Placed with religious sect

Was abused

Bounced from house to house

Ended up in a group home.

Ended up living out of his truck in high school

Took the blame for a murder he didn't commit

Canceled plans to go college on a full ride to protect his sister.

Can blow things up with his mind

Can unlock shit with his mind

Can move things with his mind

Got to watch his siblings have the dream life; 2 parents, well off, nice house prolly, while he languished in poverty.

Literally, Michael could pick up a tanker truck, move it over someone and let it loose and you wouldn't be able to. Charge him with anything.

He could pick locks and steal shit. (Okay, he practically admitted to stealing stuff from the UFO emporium) and literally there would be nothing to point to him. (He can also cause cameras to go on the fritz, so literally, there wouldn't be any evidence of it.)

When Jesse Manes broke his had he could have literally shoved him out the window, but he didn't, because that would be dangerous.

Instead of being spiteful and angry and bitter taking all his emotions out on the world... he works in a junk yard, lives in an airstream, and plays the part of the town drunk so that people don't realize just how friggen smart he is.

He's not perfect.

Let's not go there

He's very flawed and makes not the greatest judgement calls. (Threatening Liz, telepathically flinging the knife across the counter into the chocolate cake and then joking about it.) But he does what he can for the people that he cares about. Izzy needs a heart to heart: bring it. Max needs talk to: bring beer. Liz needs a science head to help her: BYOBB (bring your own busin burner.) Maria needs a sign fixed: free.99 as long as you forgive my tab. Alex needs to commiserate over shared childhood trauma: bring beer, we'll do this thing.

But I just feel like people need to appreciate the fact that Michael could have very easily been the villain of this story and not the reluctant hero he's become.

[trashforprincipalhoney]

Grey's Anatomy

omg, thank you for submitting one of the greatest soapy shows of all time. one of my best friends watched it for years and I never got into it and then a year or three ago I binged 10 seasons in like two months.I haven’t watched the last 2 or so seasons, so bare with me.

favourite female character: I really liked April Kepners arc from being the intern that got fired to the badass army trauma surgeon. I’m glossing over a lot of awful stuff that happened because I don’t want the answer to get heavy, but yeah, April Kepner. Even if she was annoying at the beginning and if I’m atheist af. Close second is the iconic Queen Bokhee.                                            

favourite male character: MARK. SLOAN. What I loved most was his friendships. With Mark. With Addison. With Callie. His mentor-mentee relationship with Jackson. I just loved watching him on the telly.    

least favourite female character: it’s not even like I was Derek Sheperds No.1 fan, but PENNY. She should’ve spoken up and advocated for him when he came in for treatment at whatever. Her existence did mean one of my all time favourite episodes of Grey’s happened (Guess Who’s Coming To Dinner), but Penny working at Grey’s really sucked the life and joy out of the rest of that season and is why I stopped watching religiously.

least favourite male character: When I really think about it, maybe Jackson. I had real sympathy for him when April left him for like a year alone. But he is a bit of an a-hole most of the time. He interrupted Aprils wedding to another man, who does that?!?!

favourite ship: mark and lexie or teddy and henry. because my favourite thing is for characters in love to die and for me to have my heart crushed and to cry.

least favourite ship: I thought the George and Izzie thing was a hot mess. the Alex/girl who had amnesia was just as bad. 

film/tv show rating: 7/10. it does soap really well. it does medical drama relatively well, and it was still going strong in season 12 (which is when I dropped off). GREAT SHOW. TWO THUMBS UP.